And on a Different Note

Just yesterday I felt like things were moving smoothly with wedding stuff---then today I feel stressed out again. It's like that with me and big event planning. But after attending and participating in the Rockwood Leadership program last week and taking a good hard look at how I react to any work situation (and no doubt, wedding planning is work), I'm trying to refine and revise my approach to planning big events. I don't like having those stressed-out, insomnia-inducing moments where all I want to do is focus on some aspect of the planning for three hours (usually from 2am to 5am, resulting in serious fatigue at work the day after). It's not a healthy or fun way to be.

I'm trying to just breathe through my anxiety, to keep telling myself that it'll all be okay. And for some reason, right now, I just don't really feel like doing wedding planning work. There, I said it. And lightning has not struck me from above (knock on wood). Everything's gonna be all right. Sooner or later I'm going to really believe those words.